Anyway, my first day of the new year was started with common activities 'till it came to make bed. When I made my bed this morning, I saw my bloody old binder (which I bought 4 or 5 years ago) sprawled at the very bottom of the stack, dusty. I was just wondering so I grabbed it and began to open the pages one by one; and laughed sometimes.
And then I came to several pages full of memories (SFX: "mellow songs"). I opened and read 'em slowly. I read 'her' hand-writing about myself, how kind I was, how nice I was, and so on and so forth. 'She' also tried to make fun of me, as written on 'her' writing (even it was long time ago, I still laughed when reading it - seriously, just don't know why
). Then I realized one thing. At the very end of every single sentence, she wrote two words, underlined, over and over again. O my God, those are my favorite words. She knew I often say those words every time we had a conversation (
hiiiks...hiiiks... - Sssshhh, stop crying, will ya!). Then I opened the last page. She wrote quite long sentences (almost like a short story, if I may say) which I guessed the point was she loved me badly (lieee) and didn't wanna loss me (but she did - damned her! 
).I closed the binder and was asking to myself why
she wrote those words. For a moment, I closed my eyes to find the answer yet remained unsolved. However, It was just a binder. Nothing more. What's inside it would be inside it. But yes, it does bring back the old memories.
